Questions From a Life-Watcher
I am a “Life-Watcher." I watch, witness, observe and am aware of how each day begins and ends. I watch the progression of time that brings changes with the passing of years. I watch my heart beat, the movement of my breath, and how my thoughts come and go. I watch images appear and disappear, and emotions respond to self-expression and self-destruction. I watch the body modulate sensations. I watch how the sounds of harmony shift into dissonance. I watch the wounds of the ego manifest into patterns that repeat themselves. I watch as I accumulate insights as badges of wisdom. I watch relationships that come and go. I watch energy ebb and flow. I watch how the events of the outside world pulsate with its own rhythm. I ask questions with curiosity and watch the outcome. I watch how my intentions create my circumstances. I watch how I create my life with sacredness. I watch how my daily prayers feed my soul and connect me to my higher power.
Paying attention and being aware of your mind, body and emotions is a spiritual experience that ties you to something far greater than yourself. As a human in training, I recognize how my early wounds drive me to prove that I am okay, a good person who deserves love and validation. This quest drains my life force because I am stagnant with a repertoire of emotions that consists mostly of anger, self-loathing, sadness and fear. The anticipation of the future is a companion to worry about what might possibly be. Suffering means believing the chatter in my head and allowing my emotions to consume me.
When I watch how I protect my ego from being hurt, I am able to witness how this can also cause others to be hurt. It is the ability to sit, stand and lie in my brokenness that I discover a treasure that is beyond what words can describe. I realize that I am the author of my own life story.
Most of us will go to great lengths not to feel our initial wounds, or the emotions that are remnants from our past. Instead, we are distracted and preoccupied with avoiding pain. It is through the journey of avoidance and denial that we create our experiences to become the author of our one precious life.
Also Available from Mary-Beth
Spirit Fortunes are pocket-size cards intended to inspire and uplift your higher self. Insights: On Self-Love are pocket-size cards intended to cultivate love as the foundation for experiencing emotional and mental well-being. They are both designed to fit in a purse or briefcase. To use the cards: Draw a random card in the morning as an intention, choose a card for a pick-me-up during the day, or select a card prior to bed. Both sets of cards are natural extensions of her book, Questions From a Life-Watcher, they are available on this website directly from the author, and also at Amazon.